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Current State of the Union.

                                                    Current State of the Union.

                               IN                                                                           OUT

                             sushi                                                                             pizza

                              zumba                                                                   regular cardio

                              pearls                                                                       diamonds

                               

Talk soon, 

Elle B. Are ♥

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Solo But SO Major.

 From my heart...   (8/4)

They say “alpha girls” don’t wait for an invite — they make one. But what happens when you’re the only one ready to RSVP? In Cancun, I found out.

The last three days, I’ve been begging to go to the club. I’m 18, so yes, I’m allowed. But nobody wanted to go with me (NOT EVEN JUST TO CHECK IT OUT!)

Last night, I finally got tired of waiting for someone to say yes. So, I decided to be independent. I followed the music, walked into the club on my own, ordered a couple of VIRGIN drinks (calm down), and made new friends (Andrea and Camilo). I instantly felt good vibes and fun energy with people I felt safe with. We danced, laughed, and had a blast. Andrea even walked me back to my room at 12:40 AM to make sure I got there safely.

It felt amazing. I don’t have clubs back home, so this was my chance. I went out on my own, made smart choices, and had the time of my life. That’s what independence should look like.

Then… dinner happened. I was sitting next to my cousin, having fun with the whole family, when my grandma turned to me and asked what time I went to bed. My stomach dropped — I knew something was up. I said “pretty late,” and she started telling me how upset she was that I went out without permission.

Cue my mood crashing.

Here’s the thing: I know I’m still young. I’m not claiming to be the most mature adult in the world. But I’m tired of feeling like it’s a crime to be independent. I take a lot of pride in making smart decisions. If I had felt unsafe at any point, I would have left. Instead, I made friends instead of being alone — that’s called being resourceful, responsible, smart, and yes, independent.

It’s frustrating when the same people who don’t want to join me in my life also don’t want me doing things without them. And yeah, it stung to know somebody told them I went out (especially when they're out here making way riskier choices than I ever would).

So I hid out in the bathroom after dinner, calming myself down, replaying the night in my head. I’m still proud of myself for going. Even if my family didn’t like it, I know I made the right call for ME.

Maybe this is what growing up feels like — the thrill of independence, and the sting of realizing not everyone’s ready to see you as your own person. But you know what? I am. 

That night taught me that independence isn’t just about going out alone — it’s about trusting yourself when no one else does. I learned that I can step into a new place, make connections, keep myself safe, and create memories that are mine alone. Even if my family doesn’t approve, that doesn’t erase the fact that I handled myself exactly how I’d want to — smart, confident, and unapologetically me.

Cancun didn’t just give me a fun night out. It gave me proof that I’m ready to start living life on my own terms.

QOTD: Don't dim your own light just to make someone else comfortable.

Talk soon,

Elle B. Are. ♥

LBRdiaries@blogspot.com

Sea You, New Me.

 Let's be real...

It has totally been a MINUTE since my last update! I've been busy trying to build my life. (Adulting is totally hard.) Vacationing in Cancun was ah-mazing! I had loads of fun and got that summer experience I was CRAVING. Now I'm back in my home town and everything is the same, almost everything. I learned new things about myself and had small change, but definitely not insignificant. 

1. I value independence. A LOT. I've learned I can do things on my own, it may be anxiety inducing but it definitely feels GOOD.

2. I like sushi. :) 

3. I am ready and willing for change.

During my vacation I felt like a child, in a bad way. I wasn't allowed to go see places on my own and the staff kept mistaking me for underage. I may only be 18 but I am an adult now so I expect to be treated like one. I feel like one of the reasons why I had felt so anxious to start college and move away is because my family discourages it. I totally love my family to death but I need to plant and grow my own life. They make change seem bad and selfish but it is the whole opposite of that. Change allows strength and compassion to enter your life more efficiently. It makes you grateful for what you have while allowing your mind to learn more about the world. 

Being in the city of Solidaridad exhibited the mentality of there being more out there in the world. Now that I am back home I see opportunity. I feel a bit stuck now that I'm back here, same old routine, but at the same time I am looking forward to what the future will bring me. 

Summer has been great but I'm also ready to see what's next in store for me! :)

QOTD: Quit letting who you were, talk you out of who you're becoming. 

Talk soon,

Elle B. Are. ♥

LBRdiaries@blogspot.com